Today has been an unusual day, and quite honestly a difficult one.  I am dealing with the closing of the Indy Boot Camps, which I had signed on to for a year.  It is the ONLY thing that has been effective for me, and I am really struggling with my options post closing.  I was there for three very hardcore hours per week.

But more than that, I am struggling about my trainer Tod Esquivel.  He is a lifesaver to me, and although I know it is his decision (and right) to move to another phase of his life, I just know that these are big changes for him.  I am sure he will be fine, but he is so very good at what he does that I selfishly wish he would stay at it forever.  He however is a stand up guy, and I respect his decisions.   He is a guy however, I hope I know for many years.  He has a great way with people.  I am going to miss him beating the hell out of me.

And then in all my restoration of my computer I found THIS video.  I know I often rant about the stroke, but I want to present this video to you as EVIDENCE.  This is weeks before my stroke, and as you can see I am thin and am in shape.  I was and literally still believe myself to be an athlete.  Sadly, even my wife doesn’t remember what I was like just before the stroke…….all we remember is fat old me.

HERE IS WHAT I AM HEADING BACK TO……which is what I know as ME.  Nobody else remembers, but I do.  And truthfully, that is all that matters in the end.  I am not delusional, I am committed.  And my favorite part of the video is Steph laughing at my joke……enjoy.

Pray for me……  I am going to beat this or die trying……because I remember!

Goodnight my friends and God Bless!

Tommy+