An offering from the lost………

I have spent the last week at a retreat for the clergy of the Diocese of Quincy in which I am canonically resident.  That may seem confusing, but what it means is that I am a priest in the Diocese of Quincy, and by any measure, that is my home.

And it pleases me very much to confess that, as the people I have met in the Diocese over the 5 or so years I have been there have been some of the finest I have ever known.  In fact, when I come to an event I am eager with anticipation, and when I leave an event, I am steeped in a bit of disappointment, if not depression.

I did not make this retreat last year, and it was hard on me.  I was working as an addictions and mental health therapist at Fairbanks Hospital. and it just did not seem okay to ask for the time away less than 90 days after your start date to head to a retreat.  But I am convicted that I was wrong about that now.  The very fact that I am a priest AND an addict in recovery make the importance of staying connected to my priesthood vital.  And as I am still a priest, and in my 30th year of ordained and successful ministry, compared to almost 40 years of active use/addiction, make the priorities far clearer.

I really do not think God wants to judge me or discard me into the trash heap.  But I do think he has raised up a shepherd to show others how to recover from a call to a place from where many do not  return.  You can judge me if you would like, but I am among those who have stared the Devil in the face, rejected him, and have lived.  And I can teach you to do the same, and have many others I walk with who possess the same skill.

Do not walk this road alone, and do not think that all God’s saints wear wings, or halos, or robes of gold.

God will provide us with what we need.  We only need to be willing to see and accept what He offers.

If you need help, please contact me.  I have been called to offer myself, and I hang with many others who have been called to do the same.

Faithfully,

Tommy+

 

A story about unction…..

Today, I spent much fo the day with other clergy from my diocese her in Wisconsin.     It may not mean a lot to you, but it means a lot to me. I was working last year and unable to make it because I was an additions therapist and a mental heath therapist at the hospital.

But today I was able to anoint, alone with others two different priests’ hands.  These priests will in turn anoint many others through their ministries, sometimes for the sick or dying, sometimes for healing, sometimes for baptism, and sometimes for those whiting to be baptized.

Today was being a part of being meaningful to two great men who’s hands will anoint many

Oddly enough, because in the chapel I pray in front of the windows of the Sacraments, i became very aware the the last anointing I took place in was two weekend to the day when I, along with my family, gave my dying father his Last Rites.  It seemed to make a difference for he departed us for his eternal home shortly thereafter. and for a priest of only 30 years, the high honor bestowed upon me was to do it with my family.

Sure, there can be technicalities, such as me and my wife along with my step-mom, my brother and sister and her fiancé’.    It is a bunch of crap asI see it.My step mom has always treatment me like her son and my brother and sister have also treated me no differently.  We are a family, and that is what we do.

Dad’s service was in a church that considers me a heretic.  Yet they welcomed me with one arms.  In 2007 they charged me with a crime according to church law….in fact even before i became the Rector in Anderson, the Bishop tried to convince them that i had stolen money. (even though audits and never getting arrested broke that story into what it was…lies)

But Mother Julia was nothing short of wonderful.  She told me she wanted and intended to offer me communion, which I asked for permission to take, which my bisho gladly granted and declares as  blessing.  I did not speak, although I did the preyers, and I was blessed to be a part.  Many of the supposed bad clergy came to support me and our family, and the welcome from Trinity could not be more gracious.

Even the new (new to me) Bishop of Indianapolis was gracious and pastoral to me.  I was humbled and grateful.

So now our father has entered life eternal, and he seemed to be waiting for those last rites (extreme unction).  I am glad he has let go and let God.  I am eternally grateful to my family for their love and care and support for him.

How we will live without him is full of him not going directions and telling us he can do it himself.  Good for him, he was wrong.  But we are all blessed that he is now in a better place, surrounded by people not nearly as interesting and us (like our sisters who are already there)  But we will push on.

Death is never there end but an entry into a new place.  We will all go there soon, but for me not to soon.  I still have some issues about how he told me I was helping him in the wrong way.

Good bless him, and Good luck Jesus!  We will see him soon.

May his soul through the tender mercies of God Rest in Peace.

Faithfully,

Tommy+